Fuck distance. I still want you.
and it drives me crazy.
You see me at my lowest moments
You gave me sight when I had broken focus
With a smile that opens up like a rose does
Even when it all seemed so fucking hopeless
She was the kind of girl who could make you forget about a lot of things.
— John Green, Paper Towns (via iamtough)
Today
I walked into school, and cried
I walked around the school 4 times, not knowing where to go.
I go to the auditorium, no one.
I found danny, i hugged him and we stood in silence, he looked sad. he said “its not the same” and tears came into my eyes. then rocio and genieva showed up, and we were so happy to be together.
class, boring. After class, i went to wait outside the auditorium, idk why, but i did, and then genieva showed up, then rocio. genieva left. me and rocio had auditorium together. we were staring at the times. She mentioned “they must be graduating now” it was around 9:30. who knows. we stayed silent. i was enjoying her company, maybe she enjoyed mine.
I walked around looking like a lost puppy in lunch. not knowing where to go or who to be with. after 15 mins i found genieva and rocio skipping to first lunch. we sat with fonsy.
after 6th period, i passed by mrs.fernandez class and sadness overwhelmed me. My heart had hope he would walk out that door any minute. but he wont ever, not again.
8th period was okay.
afterschool, i simply walked by the auditorium, saw no one, walked to my car, and went home. no hugs. no goodbyes. no nothing. there was no one to hug me goodbye anymore.
I miss them. I hate school. I hate it.
